So I ask you, how can you have more integrity with yourself by speaking YOUR truth? What inside of you is dying to come out? How are you shrinking yourself down? Not speaking your truth is soul crushing. But "coming out" and I mean coming out of the darkness of people pleasing and lying is your only redemption. A little bit at a time. And if you have children, what are you teaching them? It is a practice, do it a day at a time. Eat the elephant one bite at a time and don't beat yourself up when you fall back into the trap. But know that you are worth being heard. YOUR TRUTH. It will set you free.